Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Hmm, this is a tricky one.  I dont have a hero in the sense of a popstar or actor actress that has let me down because they havent yet.  I started to look closer to home and I worried for a while about putting it out there on the web incase he should see it, but since we dont contact anymore I decided to.  How can I heal if I dont admit to these things right?  Even if it is painful.

I have two half brothers.  I was never particulary close to one of them but the other, well I used to worship the ground he walked on.  Then something happened.  I dont know what exactly and dont know if he does.  It got to the point that I used to dread seeing him or speaking to him because of the put me downs and his apparant lack of understanding.  That turned my worship of my bigger hero, (hes a police man by the way and is now working and living as a Canadian Policeman). into a complete feeling of inferioty whenever I was around him.  He couldnt even be bothered to send a wedding card for our wedding in June.  His best wishes came via a family member.  He said he wasnt sure his good wishes would be well recieved??????????????? A cop out if you ask me. 

Still all that being said I am happy and that is all that matters.  I hope he and his family are happy too. 

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

This is going to be a something not a someone. 

MY STRESS TABLETS
Ok I know what a thing to think of but its true.  I am on Citralipram they are non habbit forming anti depressants but boy oh boy, I am unbareable if I run out or forget to take them.  I turn into some form of jeckal and hyde.  Snappy, irratable and I could win a crying competition  hands down.  and I gain a pound by looking at an orange, what is with that one hey? 

So for a peaceful and harmonious life I am not coming off them anytime soon.  Especially with christmas coming ever closer. 

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Looking back on the memory of

The dance we shared 'neath the stars above  For a moment all the world was right   How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye  And now I'm glad I didn't know   The way it all would end the way it all would go   Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain    But I'd had to miss the dance    Holding you I held everything     For a moment wasn't I a king   But if I'd only known how the king would fall   Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all   And now I'm glad I didn't know   The way it all would end the way it all would go   Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain   But I'd had to miss the dance   Yes my life is better left to chance.   I could have missed the pain but I'd had to miss the dance.  Written by Toni Arrita. 

Garth Brooks.  A country singer I came across years ago.  We even went to Nashville to see him at the Grand Old Opry.  The dance and other songs like Unanswered Prayers got me though some very tough times.  When I referred in previous posts about my heart problems and the struggle I had and overcome Garth was there, in music.  He was there during happy times.  Seeing him live was a dream come true.  I dont know how to express how much I love his music, as does my mum.  He still sends a shiver down my spine when I listen to his music.  I have a huge collection of his stuff.  He will always be my favourite and I will always defend him when people say they dont like him.  I have converted a few people. 

thanks for the music Garth.

TRUTHS 10 and 11

My latest bottle I have decorated ready for tomorrows table top sale

TRUTHS 11 and 12

tea swap.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

I was not very good a receiving compliments.  So when I first met my husband and he started complimenting me every day, even now he still does.  He notices everything.  I brought some new earings in a sale the other day and wore them.  He complimented on how nice they were.  Now of course I love those compliments.  He even notices things that I do to the house and nearly always says something. 

I also get compliments on my art, which means so much too me.  Not just from my husband and mum but from strangers too.  I am having a table top sale Tomorrow and am looking forward to that.  I hope it goes well and I get a few sales from it.  That is the biggest compliment of all.  When someone likes your stuff enough to pick it up look at it and then buy it. 

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

I dont really know.  I dont tend to notice things like that.  I guess because I am used to having compliments now it doesnt bother me when I dont.  I used to not get compliments on anything or biast ones from my mum.  That used to get me upset sometimes but now with my husband I get the opposite so its never an issue anymore

TEA SWAP REMINDER

Just to remind people of the tea swap I am hosting.  My first ever swap.  If you have any ideas on it please leave a comment.  I am getting a button done to put up so you can click on that and go straight to the post.  Should be up very soon.

Armistice Day

ARMISTICE DAY


Here is a lovely link to explain  why we wear a poppy today.  http://www.woodlands-junior.kent.sch.uk/customs/remembrance/poppy.htm

A huge heartfelt thank you

At 11 am on 11 November 1918 the guns of the Western Front fell silent after more than four years continuous warfare.


What is Remembrance Day?
Remembrance Day is on 11 November. It is a special day set aside to remember all those men and women who were killed during the two World Wars and other conflicts. At one time the day was known as Armistice Day and was renamed Remembrance Day after the Second World War.
Remembrance Sunday is held on the second Sunday in November, which is usually the Sunday nearest to 11 November. Special services are held at war memorials and churches all over Britain.

A cup of Tea anyone

A CUP OF TEA SWAP AND BLOG PARTY

I have decided.  I am going to host a swap/blog party.  I have been wondering for a while what to theme it on.  Then just now over a cup of chamomile honey and vanilla tea it hit me.  A Tea Party.

So you will want to know how to play along. 

Send me an email and or comment on this post. I will need an email to contact you with your swap partner. (I will keep sign up open for two weeks)

Tell all your friends they can play too.

I will email you your swap partner two weeks today.  Tuesday 23rd.

And the list of what to include on your swap

A sample of tea.(Some ideas)

                 

Normal tea, ginsing tea, green tea, herbal tea, your own herbal tea mix if you have one, ceylon tea, lipton tea, fruit tea, twinnings tea.  Any thing.   At least one sachet. 

A handmade tea related item.  Tea cosy, tea pendan,t tea charm, tea ATC ACEO,

Tea supplies art related.  This can be, http://www.etsy.com/search_results.php?search_query=tea&search_type=supplies open to interpretation ie tea stain, tea dyed tags etc

Then when everyone has received their goodies (email me to let me know) I will set a date to do a blog party so we can see what we all get

How much?  no less than $15.00 and no more than $20.00

A HISTORY OF TEA

For more than 4000 years now, tea has been a faithful staple in many cultures and countries around the world. Used as a sustaining liquid for those suffering from infectious disease, there are many believers who have always asserted that tea holds powerful healing properties.  In some cases, they believe that tea can actually cure ailments and sickness. New emerging studies are elevating these assumptions from myth to scientific reality, providing significant evidence that tea is indeed a source of health and contains legitimate healing properties.

: http://EzineArticles.com/?expert=Jon_Stout

Any questions about the swap and blog party, just ask.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

This goes back to my school days again with the mental bullying.  I shan't go on and on about this because I have previously, but they did make my life difficult for me.  I don't tend to hang on to people that treat me badly.  I am strong enough now ( I like to think) to walk away from it.  I will stay with people who like me and get me.  I do get very upset when someone doesn't like me.  I like to know why so that if I can change that aspect of myself then I at least want to try.  I think the upset, how it makes us feel and behave, isn't worth the pain of keeping people, who make your life hell or treat you bad in your life's.  Though I completely understand it isn't always possible to walk away from it.   I like to think that there is always someone who will help us take that step if we need to.

A christmas wreath I made yesterday.  The plastic glittered flowers and balls came from Value house and the wreath from a local florists it cost me £10.00 around $14.00 to make.  I am so pleased with it.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Hmmmm.  I don't know about this one.  I don't think that there is really anyone.  like I said in day 08 about not staying with anyone who treats us badly, equally I feel like we can't always keep the good friends in our lives.  I feel that everyone comes and goes into our lives for a reason and when they have done their jobs and we have learnt a lesson or two from them they move on.  Very philosophical of me I know.  I truly believe this though so I tend to let go easily knowing that someone else is just around the corner. 

Plus.  I never really had any friends as I was ill a lot and would have to cancel arrangementts made and until a round my college years friends didn't understand.  They just wanted to play and I couldn't so they found someone who could.  Fair enough I guess.  OK enough meaningless ramblings.  I wont bore you anymore, not until I decide to do Day 10 anyways.

A little sketch I did a few months back.

Truths number 6 and 7

Truths number 6 and 7

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

I hope I never have to tell someone close to me that someone close to them has passed away.  I just dont think I could do it.  It was bad enough when I had to call my husband (then fiance) home from work because my nan had passed away in the nursing home she was in.  Rob was a tower of strength for me.  We drove back to mums home 80 miles away (I dont drive) and he just did everything for us.  Even at the funeral he finished my speach because I just broke down and couldnt do it.  I am not sure, no I know, I couldnt be that tower of strength they would need me to be.  I am such a sentative person that I would probably end up being looked after instead of doing the looking after.  I know it sounds selfish and it probably is, and who knows I might surprise myself and be able to, its just I hope I never do have to. 

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Well this is an easy one, I have two.  My mum, she has had more than her fair share with me over the years.  One time I remember I had had my valve replaced and the operation was a real success.  I came out of intensive care and into a cubicle on my own.  One tea time I had a sandwich and felt terribly sick and I was.  Then for weeks I couldnt keep anything down the doctors had all but given up hope and said there wasnt anything left they could do.  I went to 4 stone (63ish lbs) 110z.  In my semi conscious state I heard mum say that its just like she has given up.  Well I heard her and said thats a horrible thing to say.  The thing is I think I had because in two weeks I was over 6 stone (93ish lbs) and back home.  So thanks to her I am still here now. 

Secondly is yes you guessed it, my husband.  What can I say.  I was beginning to get worried about ever finding someone (we met on Dateline).  Now my life is so wonderful and I am so happy and I know I am being soppy but I dont care.  He even gets on with my mum, how cool is that.