Monday, 6 December 2010
I saw this outside my window and knew it would make a great photo. Having this much snow on Portland is very rare. The little girl has probably never seen so much in one snow fall. Or the grown up come to that. We get snow, just not this much.
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Oh my god. If I got pregnant. why my reaction? Well as much as I like children my heart condition means it is highly probable I wouldnt make it through child birth and I would pass my condition onto my baby and it could be even worse than the level I have it at now. I have been steralised to prevent it from happening and fortunately my husband isnt father material. I couldnt live with having an abortion so permanment preventative steps are a must. It sounds harsh to someone who who would give anything for a baby, I am just not that kind of person I guess. Though I can empashise with someone who has to undergo treatment to have a baby, it just isnt possible for me. I know that I would never be able to pick up my baby when it cries to comfort it or carry it around when its tired. I never know what my day is going to be like health wise now so with a baby, it would be terrible. I feel guilty enough when I am ill without a child in the aquasion. Please dont shoot me down for this but my health comes first to me and my husband. I like children, I used to babysit for a while. I would come home exhausted and need a day to recover.
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
I would love to change this amazing guilt complex I have. I have talked about it in other posts. I say sorry for everything. It drives me mad. So that is something I would like to change.
Posted by Sara at 02:51